Friday, December 2, 2011

Not that anybody cares

...and just so you know that I'm not dead!
I'm alive! Well, if you could say so; I've been devoting ALL of my time to University, homework, some University projects, finals and my Thesis. I have no life anymore, no time to hang out with friends, no time to read, no time to draw... Hell, not even time to imagine! (Not that the inspiration is here anymore, anyway... ).
All I ever want to do these days is crawl into bed and hide, I don't want to talk to anybody, nor even think anymore.
Damn, it's now 4am and I'm still awake working on some stupid project I don't really care about to begin with. I'm upset and moody and will growl at anybody who dares aproaching me right now.

...Can't I just cry to sleep and wake up some day when my life is not this upsetting anymore and I love everything about it?
I hate everything and everyone and blaaaaarrrrgggghhhhhhh

Can you see how much of a cry-baby/angsty teen I have become in these past months...?


ChinkyGirLMeL said...

Awwww poor thing. Feel better soon sweetie. Lately I've been wanting to get out of my day to day routine, I've been wanting to sleep in a lot more and just to have something exciting going on.

JJ Beazley said...

It isn't you, Orphin, it's this ridiculous society that's so obsessed with the drive to 'succeed.' I doubt there's ever been a generation of people in the whole of history who have been put under the sort of pressure yours is. I fear we might be breeding a generation that will enter the big world already burned out and ready to drop out, and that the fools who run modern culture will only realise it when it's too late.

If it's any consolation, I find you most appealing in this mood, and I don't mind a bit that you hate me at the moment!

Orphin Lasz said...

@Mel: * 3 * Thank you, dear..! Let's just hope this will all be worth it and sometime, soon, we will get days and days of sleep and many exciting adventures! …Hey, at least winter vacations are closer now! ♥

@Mr. Beazley: Once again, thank you for your words, you're a wise man, so I'll definetely keep them in mind and will try to at least work as hard as I can now that I'm already deep into this mess ; n ; least my efforts have been somewhat paying off up to this point... but still I'm upset..

Haha, seriously now? Most people just run away from me at these times (hey, I can't complain about that!) … hmmm, I guess I'm just gonna hate on myself now …but, who knows, tomorrow, who I might be hating..! hahahaha * A *

JJ Beazley said...

But being emotional really IS appealing, you know. As I said in a post once, crying is when the soul glows.